Targeted aspect of rebirth for the future.

Sometimes, I feel alone, but that is the nature of life.  Nobody can fill my needs better than me.  I know my desires and moods better than others guess I am felling.  I have no judgement about your condition.  Remember, I was there once, too.  You do appear to be disorganized.  I know, I have been there.  I remember forcing myself to avoid pleasure - because I was frightened by pleasure. Like it would hurt me.  I remember when I had to use the logic of others as a guide.  I hated myself for my illness, I made all these excuses that my brain was the cause of my problems. I believed I had to stop all my dreams, because I no matter how simple they were, I would be a failure at all of them.  I had labeled all my dreams as permently calcelled.  But, as you can see in me, that was a lie.  I did pick up my confidence, and actually, step by step I began to get assertive.  I did come to the conclussion that I could be successfull after all.  Now, my life is pretty good.   And, the work it took to get here was remarkably easy.  I had to remember that at my worst, cancelling my dreams permently, was not true.  That is why I can say some of our negative thinking is not true.  Especially when we give up.  We think we are doomed for the rest of our lives, but that is a lie.  And, I am a good example.  Here is what I learned about recovery.  It feels like every dream is cancelled and never going to happen.  Here is why... we know rebirth involves a fresh slate.  So, we try to be reborn.  However, total rebirth like a total clean slate is impossible, because we already have a perment set of skills that we can not just clean away.  And, we should not clean away everything either.  With you for example, you have a degree and art skills as well.  These can not be cleaned away, and they should not be cleaned away, either.  Plus, as much as we know rebirth seems a good philosophy, we can only have rebirth in a limited part of our thinking.  Not the whole brain.  Also, we will always be reborn into the same situation, like family, friends, and society.  So, for many reasons, we need to stay the same in many ways, despite some amount of rebirth.  To recover, a manager will sort out what to keep the same and what to change.  Cancelling your whole brain does not make sense.  There is too much valuable stuff that is fully logical, and should stay part of you during recovery and will be valuable to others as well.